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LET ME EXPLAIN WHY YOU SHOULD LOVE SOUDA KAZUICHI

Alright but seriously sometimes the fandom just gets him completely wrong and it’s just split between these two extremes and it’s really annoying me so here I go:

Souda is NEITHER a completely innocent perfect person and precious baby NOR is he a total pervert and a jerk and misogenic

Let’s start with what a lot of people either don’t know or forget when analyzing a character: his past.

Souda in middle school was a complete emotional wreck. He was bullied constantly for his looks (which was his shorter black hair and glasses and pointed teeth) as well as his intelligence. He was pretty much a geek in the sense of the word that middle schoolers used. He was also POOR. He lived in a bike shop with probably just his dad (his mom is never mentioned so I assume she’s just not there, which would make sense towards Souda’s loneliness and isolation problem). He didn’t have much and you know what the number one thing he didn’t have is?

FRIENDS.

HE DIDN’T FUCKING HAVE A SINGLE FRIEND.

He did once, hell he referred to the guy as a best friend but you know what, the person was USING HIM. Just USING SOUDA FOR HIS INTELLIGENCE AND GRADES. And that’s even worse than not having any friends. Souda is a trusting person, and he was too trusting in middle school so he could be easily manipulated and led along.

He follows the crowd because he wants to be accepted. He wants to be included. He’s been alone and isolated all his life and at some point he just stopped and realize that being the person he REALLY WAS didn’t win him anything. No friends. No attention. No nothing. He looked at himself, the him in middle school, as nothing but a useless, cowardly person.

So, he tried to CHANGE.

Souda tried to completely reinvent himself. Dyed his hair, got rid of his glasses, changed up his look. And not just his look.

HE TRIED TO ALTER HIS PERSONALITY.

Why do I say this? Because of the extreme differences in his actions.

A lot of what Souda says and does, or at least some of it, is an act. One of those ‘cool guy’ acts. And this is especially true when he’s around CROWDS. When he’s with the group he tries to fit in. He goes with the flow and keeps himself in check. He says and does things that a popular guy might. And sometimes he goes too far and says something totally rude or out of line. And you know what, people who did that back in school were the POPULAR kids. So he doesn’t really think he’s doing anything wrong. And yes, sometimes he says something that’s genuinely wrong or makes him a jerk.

As someone who had his situation in middle school, let me tell you what surpassing those emotions does. It makes you SNAP easily the moment you decide you won’t do that anymore. Souda is easy to snap emotionally. He has a lot of ups and downs from anger to jealous to fear and sorrow and hell even happiness. He’s an emotional roller coaster and he can’t control it at all. He’d pressed all this down through most of his life and now it’s gushing out like a fucking waterfall. And that’s not a good thing. It’s really a bad thing, trust me on this one I know. It doesn’t make you a likeable person when you’re constantly firing on all cylinders.

All his emotions are so damn overblown! His completely puppy love affection for Sonia (and as a result jealous hatred of Gundam) are one of the prime examples. As someone who has never really had a change to just… love a girl, he goes way overboard. He showers her with more affection than she wants and drives her totally crazy because he doesn’t have a damn lock on his emotions. At one point she straight up tells him she’s frustrated and creeped out by his constant advances. She’s uncomfortable and tells him that. He isn’t some perfect romantic, and YES HE IS A BIT PERVERTED. Not to some extreme extent, like say Jiraya from Naruto or other legendary perverts. He’s perverted like a god damn teenage boy with emotional instabilities.

Look me in the eye boys and tell me you didn’t or wouldn’t have said some of that shit and don’t pull the nice guy act on me.

YES THIS IS A FAULT. As I said, he isn’t perfect, of course not. He gets a LOT of things wrong in his whole ‘attempt to change and be one with the crowd and be the right person’. There’s plenty of reasons to dislike him for what he may say or do, but there are situations where you need to STOP judging that from a bias.

My main example is when he and Nidai tie up Komaeda.

STOP GETTING MAD AT THEM I WILL FUCKING SLIT YOUR THROATS.

GOD DAMNIT EVERYONE ON THE ISLAND IS FRIGHTENED AS FUCK. SOMEONE JUST DIED. IN FRONT OF THEM. DROPPED IN A MOTHERFUCKING VOLCANO. THEY WERE SCARED. SOUDA, WHO HAS VERY HIGH EMOTIONAL TENDENCIES ESPECIALLY TOWARDS FEAR REACTED HOW HE REALISTICALLY WOULD HAVE IN THE SITUATION. THERE WAS THREAT OF A TRAITOR. KOMAEDA’S ACTIONS IN THE FIRST TRIAL WERE HIGHLY SUSPICIOUS. SOUDA AND NIDAI (ANOTHER GREAT CHARACTER THE FANDOM IS TOTALLY MISSING OUT ON) WERE LOOKING OUT FOR EVERYONE AND ACTED RASHLY, BUT REALISTICALLY, TO PREVENT GOING BACK TO THAT DAMN TRIAL ROOM.

ALSO THEY DIDN’T KNOW A THING ABOUT KOMAEDA AND HIS DAMN SOB STORY BACKSTORY (I love Komeada don’t get me wrong I’m making a point here) SO OF COURSE THEY WERE GOING TO SUSPECT HIS CRAZY WORDS AND ACTIONS.

That aside, back to Souda and his emotional act.

It’s really clear to me that a lot of what he does is enveloped in this image he’s trying to create for himself to get friends and be the popular guy is an act. Because of what happens when his emotions are at a high. He’ll act different, a lot of the times when he’s just around Hinata who he’s really trusting of and believes to be his first REAL FRIEND (I’ll get to this later).

You want to see examples of the real Souda?

Here’s one: When the find the private beach. The whole god damn island is a private beach but he’s so fucking excited anyways. Excited. Happy. AND A COMPLETE DORK LIKE EVERYTHING HE SAYS IN THAT SCENE IS SO DORKY LIKE REALLY. It’s such a SIMPLE THING but as a poor guy he’s never seen it before and even the most SIMPLE OF THINGS like a FRIDGE FILLED WITH SODA makes him so GOD DAMN HAPPY. And then he wants to throw a beach party and invite Sonia and he wants to share this with the girl he has a thing for and he’s just? So god damn happy about it all. And he invites Hinata too it’s just. One of those moments where I take a step back and realize what this island really is and means to someone like Souda.

Souda who has never been on a school field trip because he was avoiding his classmates. He was excited once they got to the island, he was excited about everything! And when his excitement shows it’s just so god damn genuine because everything is just… what he always wanted. And getting to what Souda wanted.

FRIENDS.

A HUGE POINT THAT PEOPLE MISS WITH SOUDA’S CHARACTER IS THAT HE’S ALL ABOUT FRIENDS.

THAT”S HIS GOAL. THAT’S WHAT HE WANTS. A FRIEND.

HE’S SO EXCITED ABOUT HINATA BEING HIS FRIEND HE PULLS THE WHOLE “SOUL FRIEND” THING BECAUSE IT’S THAT MONUMENTAL FOR HIM. IT’S THAT IMPORTANT. HINATA’S FRIENDSHIP PRETTY MUCH MEANS THE WORLD TO SOUDA HE’S SO GOD DAMN HAPPY.

And I feel even with his massive crush on Sonia he really wants her friendship as well as her affection. He just wants to feel that people like him. That people care about him. That he’s actually good enough the way he is now.

He’s doesn’t really realize that the guy he was before, back in middle school, would have been successful among a lot of these people as well. Hell, maybe if he dropped the act he’d end up with MORE friends. But that’s just a thought.

I just feel like Souda is a really complex character, but at the same time he’s EXTREMELY relateble.

He’s all about wanting to be a part of the crowd. Part of the rest of the world. No more being isolated. No more being pushed around. He’s trying to take a little confidence and chase after what he wants and try and change, even if some of that works against him or isn’t really a good thing, he’s just trying.

He’s not a bad person, not at all. He’s not perfect. But he’s not bad.

If he was would he go and build Akane a miniature Robo-Nidai after Nidai’s death? He SAW how SAD Akane was. How LONELY she was. So he built her the mini-Nidai to keep her company. Because he knows how fucking terrible it is to feel alone.

There’s just so much to his character I could literally just sit here picking apart every scene but I’m just going to go crawl into a corner and sob now yes okay

THIS HAS BEEN A PSA BY MAKI

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